Ok for all of you men who don't believe or understand why women like other woman I have 2 shows for you to check out. The first is a reality show on MTV called "A Shot At Love with Tela Tequila". This chick is right on the money with her analysis and synopsis of being bisexual and explains the difference between being with both sexes in a relationship and the sex itself. As a result of the show the star Tela was on the Tyra Banks Show today and was able to elaborate in depth on why she is the way she is. For those that think its a fad its not. You just know. and there is an extreme difference that has nothing to do with the physical act of sex itself. If you can catch either I think you will have more insight. For me at this point I am more attracted to women on a day to to day basis but I tend to think its just a result of my last rash of idiots I have run across so I I am not as ready to deal with men on a relationship level at the moment other than friends and NOT friends with benefits.
As for those that wondered where I was for whatever reason people get too consumed with what Ayana does and thinks and they take this blog and turn it into something else totally rather than a place where I can voice MY thoughts and opinions. As a result the amount of hate mail, backlash etc juts reached a point where I didn't even want to post anymore. But after a break I'm back and I say this to those people: The amount of energy you put into harassing me, worrying about me etc you could turn into something positive. I do not give me limited time to worrying about what someone I don't like is doing, saying, wearing, dating, going etc. Get a life and no one is required to read this blog, period! For all the haters; as my friend M.W. would say Psalm 109 is for you. I had to smile at that 1. They even talked about Jesus!
As far as what I have been doing....nothing I have really tried to maintain a low profile for a # of reasons. I wanted to make the regular world really work. And for those that said "I can't believe anyone would recognize you in day to day life", I say this: Bull Shit.
I purposely took a job with the opposite race as to not arouse Ayana sightings way on the other side of town where the % of blacks is less then 2%. They never noticed at work and if they did they never commented. But the minute they had an ad in a real estate magazine with a corporate company photo instead of calls about homes, loans, and credit now the calls are: "Can I speak to Ayana?" :Do you know that your employee pictured looks like Ayana Angel?" Luckily the # listed was mine so I was the one to screen the calls. But I mean really come on people! There is no Ayana mentioned in the ad. I went out of my way to look 'corporate' in the pic and I personally don't think it looks like me but I guess that's what I get for thinking.....!!!!
Then there is the gym that I sought out in the same racially challenged community so as not be harassed by people that act like paparazzi when Ayana is involved. No I would say it was about 1month before they told my trainer who was clueless that his clients was this porn star. How the heck do you recognize someone from a video in the gym with no make-up, hair in a scarf or uncombed all together??????????
Then there is the recent marketing push for my toy (yes the Ayana toy mentioned like what 2years ago) and one of the last videos that has resulted in full page ads in hip-hop magazines across the country!!! Whats so funny is that I am only in 1 of the 3 videos listed but you would think I just made some movies yesterday the way I am featured in the ad. Its ironic because this same type of advertising is the very same route I begged and pleaded with the video company to do when I was in the mix and under contract. I know that would push me etc etc now here it is 3 years later and now they want to try my marketing plan. Ironic alright.
I don't know if its Atlanta which is why as soon as my house sells I am out 100% rather than the 50/50 I have with Miami now. But I think its is ATL. I don't get the Ayana in other cities at all when I out dong normal things. Now I cam sympathize with Brittany Spears etc. I would be on some shit too if I had people in my face everyday wanting as the song says "A Piece of Me". Who knows maybe I am not just as celebrity struck or perhaps its because I was naive and always thought when I wanted to do something else I could with no problem. Or I was naive into thinking that people actually have lives but I guess they do not and those they see on the Internet become their obsession rather than what it is which is entertainment.
I say all this to say I still have NO desire to do videos but if you are going to seek Ayana out I will make it easier for you and profitable for the real me. Here shortly so you won't have to make up stories, search relentlessly, ask others, email etc anyone to find out what I'm doing. Just wait for it:) I guess I'll be the female Jay-Z of porn!!!
As for football....Does anyone want my tix to the Falcons? They are 1st row 25 yard line. Can't get much better. The cheerleaders are right there and rotate each 1/4:)!!!!Haha
Sorry so long but wanted to let you know what's been going on with me. Oh now that I have gotten rid of the imposters on My Space. I might as well give you my "Official" Page : http://www.myspace.com/ayanaangelatl
Monday, November 12, 2007
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