Sunday, October 01, 2006

In Response

I have learned over the years not to even attempt NOT telling guys what I do. Because one relationship I was not upfront and it drove the guy crazy literally in the end, restraining orders etc because initially I had a regular job. I lied to him etc and it really turned out bad. Like scary bad! So that is not even an option. The only question is how deep my interest is in them as far as how long I take to tell them. In this instance I met this guy at a strip club. Its not really an NFL/team issue because in Atlanta the strip club is a way of life. On any given night you could hold a press conference so there is no major concern on backlash from the NFL. I have openly dated a few athletes some high profile some not but I have never been too invested in the relationships since they were athletes so I guess stereo-typing given a person's career can go both ways. Plus Minnesota is a far cry from Atlanta or New York you know what I mean:) What's that basball player that married the stripper from the Gold-Club in Atlanta? I think he used to play for the Mets.

As for dating porn guys....HELL NO!!!!!!! They do not operate like porn girls. Its almost like they have to over compensate their ability to 'get' women since they have sex 4-5 times a week with the most gorgeous women but those girls are being paid. So they do double the normal player stuff off camera to boost their ego. Now that should be a Dr. Phil episode. Ask any porn actress those porn guys are relentless in the pursuit of 'non-paid' pussy (Ha Ha):)!!!!

If any relationship I was in was up for decision making on a serious exclusive long-term situation regardless of who they are I would eventually have to get a job or a career in some other aspect besides being in front of the camera and I don't have a problem there but if that person wants to be with me they are going to have to either help me transition or give me the patience while I make moves in that direction. Trust me I don't want any let down either and that is NOT why I am looking to stop doing videos. I personally would like a little more normalcy in day to day life.

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hi, Ayana! Seems like your life in a relationship is more complicated then your life as a porn star. Continue to show patience and you'll find that special guy, you seem to have the intelligence to figure it out. Anyway, what happened to your NFL picks of the week, some of us fans enjoy getting the female angle, please continue giving us your opinions. Just so you know I'm a somewhat attractive, not rich but secure man, who would be pleased to be your man, despite your past or present lifestlye, the thing is you understand what adjustments you and he would have to make in order for the relationship to work. If I ever meet you (no not for sex) I would love to experience the good person I have read you to be.

Brayja said...

Ayana, you never answered the question about kids. Do you see them in your future? Interesting thing you said about porn guy's and always trying to get non-paid pussy, it brings up the question about porn women. Do they ever have unpaid sex, other than in a relationship? I've always wondered if meeting a porn girl meant money leaving the gentlemen pocket. Do you ever engage in sex with men your don't have a commitment with, for free? Another question I've always wonder about you. What's the quickest amount of time you have had sex with a man after first meeting him, without having to be given a gift amount? Just so you know, I would make love to you all day everyday, if you were my woman, well, at least twice a day, but I would think about making love to you all day, everyday, just like I do now. Dang your fine! Your going to make some guy very lucky.

Anonymous said...

What is it about you and shallow men? I think you just need a real man/friend. There's nothing wrong with doing porn. Most men think a women's love for them is between their legs. So they feel they have to be the sole owner of it. It's ego! To bad I am not that lucky to meet a woman who can be a sexpot and my lady. If I was I differently wouldn't be that shallow. I belive character defines, us not our career. If you still need a real friend holla back: iamwilfredlee@hotmail.com..

Anonymous said...

I agree you are going soft. Are you trying to become a real Angel. God is good he may let you in, but I like the bad Angel better.

Anonymous said...

Hi. We miss hearing from you, it has been a couple of weeks since you have posted anything. We look foward to hearing from you hopefully on a regular basis. I hope all is well with you, hope to hear from you soon.