Thursday, March 22, 2007

Updates!!!

Hi there soooooooooooooooo sorry I have been out of the loop trying to get it together you know. I am quite happy, elated even with the way things are going. Its nice to have to use yoru brain every once in awhile you know. I am really excited about my exit strategy and what the future holds.

I realize I must be on the right track, either that or there is a free HATER-AIDE give-away!!!:) I even had someone e-mail me that I can never do anything else and that I need to 'stop putting' on airs. Wow. I know most that have an issue with me don't believe I could have ever done anything else but perhaps the fact that I did go to college and grad school before I did any of this is always what set me apart. I can actually hold a conversation outside of "uh, uh, uh Ahhh"!! I am not really upset at the hate mail, it makes me laugh now even harder. I don't get why people that have such negativity are so moved by my comings and goings. Who knows, who cares!!!! I do not think I am better than anyone in fact I know that I am not. But I am smart enough to make MY OWN decision to move on. Nothing against those still doing whatever it is that works for them but it wasn't working for me. I just moved on to the next episode that's it and thank God its on my terms and not a forced situation. Like Kenny Rogers said,...."YOU GOTTA KNOW WHEN TO FOLD THEM, KNOW WHEN TO WALK AWAY"....you know the rest.:)

Unfortunately for you sports fans, I am not a basketball or baseball fan really. I tend to watch the final four, and the NBA playoffs, but can't sit through a whole baseball game. BORING!!!!!! So you won't get any educated picks from me on those sports. I think they make a ridiculous amount of $$ and some of there whining just amazes me.......and makes me sick:)

Love??????? No news is good news. I am working on career right now so actually having to show my face somewhere and do work with regularity, frankly makes me tired. I end up falling out around 8:30 so no energy level for drinks, dinner, etc until I get on my own time. About 2 more weeks to go!!!

But that is all for now just wanted to give you an update and thanks to all the well wishers that helps me get out of bed every day!!!!!

Love,
Ayana

13 comments:

Anonymous said...

Hey, Ayana! I'm happy things are going well for you, keep that positive attitude and you will find things in your favor. The jealousy for you will be there as long as you are doing well for yourself, I don't know why some people just hate to see other people do well. Believe me Ayana as much as I hate you leaving the Porn business, I understand why you are doing it and I accept the fact you are moving on to the next chapter of your life. I wish you well with what ever you choose because just like everyone you deserve to seek out whatever it is that makes you happy without the negative gestures of others. I truly wish you the best, even though I love the naughty Ayana(smile) I'm especially happy to hear that you are doing well in your new career, even if it means with your success my dreams of you will never come true. Keep your head up you're heading in the right direction. I know so because you mentioned God in your current posting, I don't remember you ever speaking of hin in your postings. I knew he was within you, but it is good to see you acknowledging him. Please remember God will always love you because he knows the heart, I can say so because he knows my evil ways but has continued to bless me, because he knows my heart. I Love You, Ayana! Stay strong.

Anonymous said...

Hey if Martin Luther King had listened to other people he wouldn't be so remembered. Even Jesus if you think about it. Don't let anyone or any situation hold you back. Keep moving ahead, and you will so much happier.
R

Anonymous said...

Glad to hear everythig is going great.You are beeming with energy and confidence and will do great.Earlier this year you seemed a little worried about things working out and now things are going great.Sometimes walking blind is better than having your eyes open and listening to others.Faith can guide you better that way.I knew things would go the way you hoped,You are not only smart but give a complete effort.These leads to success that others will never attain.I continue to wish you the best of luck and wish you had the same faith in me that i have in you.Take care and continue making your haters jealous.

Anonymous said...

Keep pushing sister everything will work out sexy take care

Mr. Wood from Va beach

Anonymous said...

I think you are great, no matter what you are doing for a career. I've had the pleasure of meeting you a couple of times, each time you were very kind, joyful and filled with a lot of positive energy. That's what I liked most about you and those things are probably what draws others to you. Stay that way and people will always love you no matter what you choose as a career. There will always be haters, you seem to be above that kind of negativity. Good luck, stay sweet.

Anonymous said...

God is Good! He loves us because he chooses, he always will love us. The key is how much we are willing to love him. He blesses our lives because he is good and merciful. Don't let haters come in the way of your blessings. Stay true to yourself and never forget to give all praise to the one who maintain you. Let Jesus be the author and finisher of your faith, not the haters.

Anonymous said...

Just a another strong movtivated sista wishing you lots of Beautiful days, Happiness, peace in your life, love and Wealth (money is always a must!) I too known something about about haters Ayana and there all the same for the most part. They can't stand to see a Beautiful black woman over shadowing them so they will do all they can to darken your sunnys. Just remember who you are everyday: The Bitches (want to be you), and the guys get jealous because they known they can never get with you on a (personal level). They (All) love you.

Stay Beautiful and Strong!

your Friend.

Anonymous said...

Good luck and i hope all works out for you its just a pity that i never had the chance to meet u but hey no hate here go get em girl...i mean lady :)

Thomas said...

If you are like me anything that someone tells me I can't do I try harder. If the people that hate are not putting zeros at the end of your bank account or years onto the end of your life than they can keep the BS that they are pushing...peace

Anonymous said...

Hey,ayana,

Sorry to see you go,but atleast you are leaving on your own terms. Its' good that you have your degrees to fall back on. Good luck in all of your future endeavors.

Anonymous said...

HEy sexy I seriously want to date you.

BigTJ4rmGA said...

Hey ma this T.J. From georgia, imma keep it short and sweet cause I'm kinda busy. Congratulations on your career, your truely blessed, good luck with life and the rest of your goals, keep ya head high, and don't be so shocked when u get hated on. You a beautiful person inside and out and they hatin, aint nothin but your motivation. So let the haters do the job! Much Much LOVE.

rick said...

Hey "sexiest black chick"
This is Rick from Barbados.
I just want to say that i am a big fan and i surport you totally in your endeavours.
You will be sadly missed in my home town.The guys here worshiped you.
I can't believe we will no longer see that tempting smile,but the memories are here to stay.
Keep sweet babes and if you need some place to rest and un-wind,remember you're always welcome.
Peace