Well as predicted I got the call. No I was not particularly friendly (over 1 month since we last spoke) and I did not care for the I have no idea why your upset role (after an email and at least 4 messages left over 2 weeks ago). But I will update this later but I did not falter, if anything I think I would have been less angry if he had not just called at all!!! That I could've dealt with better but to act as if nothing is wrong...........when the 1000 pound gorilla is sitting in your lap?????????? If I was that I scared you off sexually cool, if your moral fortitude didn't like my sexual freeness cool, but to not call because........?????? and now suddenly want to say hello?????
I am taken a vow of personal life lesbianism. Have bee toying with the idea for years but from now on the only dick that enters me will pay an entrance fee!!! Ha Ha. Its the only way I can mentally deal with the games and BS that come with male-female relationships. When I am me truly me that is not what they want, when I all Ayana I all Ayana I am jaded and too business like, blah, blah, blah. Monet is the only thing that keeps me from creating the next episode of Forensic Files when dealing with this BS. Not just bachelor #1 but bachelor #2 and #3 have committed offenses this week as well. When I already seeing clients the $$ I get from would be suitors is not enough to erase my memory or hush my mouth when I feel offended. So I am cleaning house. Only 1 bachelor left who has not gotten his walking papers but I will come up with a violation!!!!!!!!
I think this page is getting way too personal what do you think????
Well my best pick and biggest pay-off of the day was not a man but instead The Tampa Bay Buccaneers, who would have ever thought.!!! HA HA HA
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Awwww, Ayana! I think you're putting to much effort into this. Can I be honest with you? Let's just put it this way, I can't see any normal guy really being completely committed to you until you are completely done with porn and escorting. Let's face it, it takes a very strong strong man, emotionally and financially to deal with the fact that the woman he loves participates in the activities which you do. But at the same time a man owes it to you to be honest with you from the beginning of getting involved with you by letting you know what he expects or wants from a relationship with you. Most guys probably lie because they want you but feels if they express their limits of exactly what they want from you, you may reject them and then they miss out on their fantasy. As far as the lesbianism, if that's the thing for you then do it, but don't you think you may run into the same problem with a woman unless she is doing the same things you are? Maybe the answer is to have a relationship with a male who's in the sex industry also, because then he couldn't find fault in things he's doing himself. I think you're great, Ayana. Stay strong.
What was his reason for not calling? Lesbianism, I volunteer to be your lover only if you promise to bring in your friends, and allow me to bring in my friends. I agree with you no man enters without paying the price of admission, especially if they are going to pull the crap this guy did.
I like your blog no I don't think it's getting way to personal. We tune in to get to know more about you it's very interesting
My Dear sister I am writing this after reading some of your old archived blogs, after chatting with a few other people in the industry it would seem you are all running into the same problems in the relationship department. And I think you know why, there was a post by another blogger who broke it down as well as anyone could have….the post stated that “most men would be very uncomfortable with the woman that they love in your former business and escorting”, this is true. Think about it if he truly cares about you there is no way he wants anybody else touching you the way that he does or looking at his treasure. But with that, he must offer a viable alternative from what you have in front of you.
The problem with society today is we as a people do whatever we feel we need to do to get what we want and that includes lying to people. Men will lie to like the other blogger stated and tell you what they want to hear once they fulfill their fantasy they are gone. This is a harsh truth, but they same will be true with a woman as with a man…you see my dear sister I am a Police Officer and some of the worst domestics I have been too have been same sex domestics….the emotions seem to run more intense and just as violent, so that is not the answer. The answer is within yourself, don’t let your past hinder you, it is just that YOUR PAST.
I might suggest to you a book by Dr. Naim Akbar called visions of manhood, in that book he explains the evolution that boys go through to become real men. He illustrates how some get stuck in that boyhood stage where they buy the right car and right clothes to impress a woman but can’t maintain her after he get her. All men past through that stage but a lot get stuck there and never progress any further. I pray that you find what you need in the relationship department, and remember….we plan and god plans, but god is the best of planners….Much love to you pretty lady.
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