Hmmmm

Ok I will elaborrate on this weekend later. But I would like to ask a question.

If you were a young man recently released from jail, for a crime that was sexually related, controversial, political and racial. Where is the last place on the planet you would be??????????

After I get some answers I will explain.

Kisses,

Ayana

NFL Network???

Ok so how many other people were furious they couldn't catch the game? I do have the NFL Network at home but I was traveling so the hotel doesn't have that!!! I tried to do as they suggested and watch it on the internet. Somehow its just not the same. The sound didn't go with the picture etc. One of the biggest and best games and all anyone saw was highlights????!!!!! Total BS!!!

To be honest I have not paid any attention to college football since The U (UM), and FSU are horrible this season. So can anyone tell me who is in it to win it? I thought most had at least 1 loss. Anyone undefeated? I was thinking LSU but I think they lost last weekend????

No news is good news as far as I am concerned. My best XXX buddy and member of the "Angel" family, Angel Eyes will be in the ATL this weekend along with Havana Ginger and I can't wait. We will definitely be doing it real big at Body Tap Sat (hint-hint). After that I will go back into seclusion. I think that is how I will roll now. I will only be scene in clubs when I either have out of town friends visiting or I am out of town myself.

Since I am relationship-less I am trying to find something good to do for New Years Eve. I don't want to repeat last year which consisted of me falling asleep at 8pm and waking back up around 3a. Missed it all!!! BORING!!!!

Also as soon as I figure it out I am going to ask some pole questions for you all. Ok I am in Boston who has Celtics tix for me???(Hint-hint)


Have a great weekend!!


Ayana

Happy Turkey Day

Hello All!!!!

This week was pretty uneventful just the way I like it. Made some cell phone cuts. So if you get the message "the # or code you dialed is incorrectly.....you didn't dial incorrectly you just didn't make the cut! HaHa

Went to see the Hawks play, yes I said the Hawks. The game was actually fun and they are so desperate for attendance they just gave my friends and I Club Level seats. I guess so we wouldn't get lonely since there was only a handful of people at the game. It was fun to just have girls night. Dinner, the game, and drinks. Then I got to hook up with my BFF from high school Freshman Year 1990!!! Since the Myspace page is actually me now long lost friends can find me. So for that reason I give it 2 thumbs up. She and I were inseparable from 1990-1996 and kind of drifted apart but the most formative years were spent with us dressing alike dating brothers etc. We were so close. So hopefully (she's in ATL) we can get that closeness back. Its nice to be out with someone who knew me long before anything ever existed and she loves me as a friend just the same with no judgement etc. It was like we had picked up where we left off. It was great! I am gonna find a pic of us back in the day and scan it. You will definitely laugh!!

On the what will I do next front. I still don't know, I have committed to do a project with my XXX lil sis Ms. Roxy Reynolds. not a video but .....you'll see in '08. As for videos from an ego standpoint I want to do some because with the exception of the usual XXX suspects I am not really impressed with what's out there but I can't make a decision based on ego. Never a good idea you know:).

But off to MI-yayo for Turkey Day and to relax a bit. Only thing is now with 2 dogs my travel bills are through the roof especially since one of them is a 4month old, 35lb Pitbull. But I just love him so much!!! But I just want to wish everyone a Happy Thanksgiving and see you same time, same place, next week!!!

P.S. Does anyone remember my Greenbay prediction........

P.S.S. ok I posted some backs from way, way back on myspace.
Kisses,
Ayana

Bi Sexuality, Men vs. Woman., Where Have I Been

Ok for all of you men who don't believe or understand why women like other woman I have 2 shows for you to check out. The first is a reality show on MTV called "A Shot At Love with Tela Tequila". This chick is right on the money with her analysis and synopsis of being bisexual and explains the difference between being with both sexes in a relationship and the sex itself. As a result of the show the star Tela was on the Tyra Banks Show today and was able to elaborate in depth on why she is the way she is. For those that think its a fad its not. You just know. and there is an extreme difference that has nothing to do with the physical act of sex itself. If you can catch either I think you will have more insight. For me at this point I am more attracted to women on a day to to day basis but I tend to think its just a result of my last rash of idiots I have run across so I I am not as ready to deal with men on a relationship level at the moment other than friends and NOT friends with benefits.

As for those that wondered where I was for whatever reason people get too consumed with what Ayana does and thinks and they take this blog and turn it into something else totally rather than a place where I can voice MY thoughts and opinions. As a result the amount of hate mail, backlash etc juts reached a point where I didn't even want to post anymore. But after a break I'm back and I say this to those people: The amount of energy you put into harassing me, worrying about me etc you could turn into something positive. I do not give me limited time to worrying about what someone I don't like is doing, saying, wearing, dating, going etc. Get a life and no one is required to read this blog, period! For all the haters; as my friend M.W. would say Psalm 109 is for you. I had to smile at that 1. They even talked about Jesus!

As far as what I have been doing....nothing I have really tried to maintain a low profile for a # of reasons. I wanted to make the regular world really work. And for those that said "I can't believe anyone would recognize you in day to day life", I say this: Bull Shit.

I purposely took a job with the opposite race as to not arouse Ayana sightings way on the other side of town where the % of blacks is less then 2%. They never noticed at work and if they did they never commented. But the minute they had an ad in a real estate magazine with a corporate company photo instead of calls about homes, loans, and credit now the calls are: "Can I speak to Ayana?" :Do you know that your employee pictured looks like Ayana Angel?" Luckily the # listed was mine so I was the one to screen the calls. But I mean really come on people! There is no Ayana mentioned in the ad. I went out of my way to look 'corporate' in the pic and I personally don't think it looks like me but I guess that's what I get for thinking.....!!!!


Then there is the gym that I sought out in the same racially challenged community so as not be harassed by people that act like paparazzi when Ayana is involved. No I would say it was about 1month before they told my trainer who was clueless that his clients was this porn star. How the heck do you recognize someone from a video in the gym with no make-up, hair in a scarf or uncombed all together??????????

Then there is the recent marketing push for my toy (yes the Ayana toy mentioned like what 2years ago) and one of the last videos that has resulted in full page ads in hip-hop magazines across the country!!! Whats so funny is that I am only in 1 of the 3 videos listed but you would think I just made some movies yesterday the way I am featured in the ad. Its ironic because this same type of advertising is the very same route I begged and pleaded with the video company to do when I was in the mix and under contract. I know that would push me etc etc now here it is 3 years later and now they want to try my marketing plan. Ironic alright.

I don't know if its Atlanta which is why as soon as my house sells I am out 100% rather than the 50/50 I have with Miami now. But I think its is ATL. I don't get the Ayana in other cities at all when I out dong normal things. Now I cam sympathize with Brittany Spears etc. I would be on some shit too if I had people in my face everyday wanting as the song says "A Piece of Me". Who knows maybe I am not just as celebrity struck or perhaps its because I was naive and always thought when I wanted to do something else I could with no problem. Or I was naive into thinking that people actually have lives but I guess they do not and those they see on the Internet become their obsession rather than what it is which is entertainment.

I say all this to say I still have NO desire to do videos but if you are going to seek Ayana out I will make it easier for you and profitable for the real me. Here shortly so you won't have to make up stories, search relentlessly, ask others, email etc anyone to find out what I'm doing. Just wait for it:) I guess I'll be the female Jay-Z of porn!!!


As for football....Does anyone want my tix to the Falcons? They are 1st row 25 yard line. Can't get much better. The cheerleaders are right there and rotate each 1/4:)!!!!Haha


Sorry so long but wanted to let you know what's been going on with me. Oh now that I have gotten rid of the imposters on My Space. I might as well give you my "Official" Page : http://www.myspace.com/ayanaangelatl

You Can't Be Serious!!!

Ok for all of you anonymous bloggers who think I am so arrogant etc I am not going to lay down and let people walk all over me just because I did porn. You can't be serious. Be for real. I will be by myself if that is the stipulation. I am not going to, as one idiot wrote 'just go with whoever likes you'......what the hell? If I don't like them why should I, period, point blank. What you all fail to understand is that ,my issues are no different then the rest of my white collar or blue collar female friends who have never taken their close off for anything. They actually will put up with a bit more than me and the get shitted on left and right. So I should let the man or woman dog me out for 1-2 years and then hope that after they have beat down my self esteem to nothing, pray they will decide that I am the last man standing? I have 5 regular friends right now that are following that philosophy and for one I think they will now move in with each other. And how long will it be before he does her the same way? If I am happy by myself I am not going to turn around and make myself unhappy so I can say hey that's my man or my woman.

So don't give me the just go with whatever comes. If I don't like it I'm throwing it back. I don't need a man or woman financially, and let's face it if I never had sex again I am A-ok there too. So if there is no substance to keep it together why should I? Sorry I am not desperate to be in a relationship. I can keep a dating line up and if that's all it ever is, that's all it ever is. I am not going to change my views because I did porn. Give me a break its 2007 and everyone has a past.

No on to more important issues.................the NFL.
I am absolutely livid that the Falcons took Vick's $$ and gave it to Leftwich? Are they serious??? Is he not more immobile than what they already have? Did Jacksonville ever win more than 6 games in a season (when they had one of the best defenses in the league) while he was there? Or did they just hie him because he was black to try an appease the city of Atlanta? Not gonna work. He is no where near as dazzling nor does he have the personality, presence, or fans that Vick had and has. They should have used that $$$ to beef up the line because with 2 cinder blocks for feet QBs we will need some one to block for them.

That's all for now folks!!!!!!!!!

P.S. To Afro Nerd I would love to interview for your site. To all others what is this crap about me hating black QBs?? First off I mention Matt Leinert in the 'who the hell cares' division twice a year and because of that I am giving him props? Give me a break. I mention the QBs for the teams I like and if those teams happen to have black QBS that's why. Mainly Miami and Atlanta so what other QBs of color have I 'hated' on????? Leftwich (Atlanta) Vick (Atlanta) Culpepper (Miami) when I have talked about McNair other than 1 sentence in a pick. As for McNabb that was more in defense of my personal fav Terrell Owens. You people kill me. If I recall I said Harrington sucked and you have never heard me sing his praises then or now? When did I praise Trent Green...oh please you are really reaching on that one.

On another note did anyone see Mon. nights Weeds episode on Showtime? Way to go Lexington Steele!!!! I loved it!!!!

NFL Picks Overall/Week 1 & Oprah

AFC North

I am so in love with Ocho-Cinco!!! I am picking Cincy or Baltimore to win the division. The real issue will be can B-more get their offense going and can Cincy come up with a defense. Hell its gonna be Baltimore to win the division with a

AFC South

Has anything changed for the Colts.....?????NO so its so easy the Colts win this division. I am very hopeful and partial towards J-ville. My play husband runs the defense here and lets hope Gerrard can do what Leftwich could not!!

AFC East

Ok in a perfect world the Dolphins win baby!!! Common sense and reality.............the Patriots. And I am going one step further the Pats are going all the way to win yet another Super Bowl!

AFC West

Ok this is like my who gives a shit Division but I really like LT so it should be pretty easy for San Diego to clinch this!

AFC North

Another of my who gives a shit Division. But loyalty lies and no one can say anything negative about my boy CW so .....................Packers win. Yes that is what I said Packers win this division!

AFC South

Before I get all choked up lets just say that Reggie and Drew were so close, so close! So I think this year that will come together and they will win the Division and I will go out on a limb again and I am sending them to Arizona!!!!!

NFC East

I should be pretty predictable by now. With the body of a god............I choose T.O. and the Cowboys to win this and shake all the hater off!

NFC West

My final who gives....but this is one step further to who gives a fuck:)!
Ok, ok I have to pick someone........I still like Matty so Arizona it is!!!

There you have it folks my overall picks...........................!!!!!!!!

Now Week One.....

1.New Orleans wins over the Colts

2.Denver over Buffalo W

3. Jacksonville over Tennessee (See you there baby!!!)

4.Miami over Washington

5. Carolina beats St. Louis W

6.New England over the Jets W

7. ATL beats Minnesota

8.Pittsburg over Cleveland W

9. Greenbay wins over Philly W

10. Houston beats Kansas City W

11. Tampa Bay beats Seattle

12. San Diego will spank Chicago W

13. Oakland over Detroit

14. Dallas over the Giants!!!! W

15. Baltimore over Cincy (I'm sorry Chad)

16. Arizona over San Fran


Lets see how I make out......Good luck fantasy team players.

Ok I am watching the Today Show and they have a segment on can Oprah determine who is the next President. Does she really have that much power? I am mean come one. That's like saying women in America only listen to what she likes. Now I know she has made several best sellers and careers just from being endorsed on her show but President???????

Kisses,
AA

Celebrity Gossip, Paternity (Update)

For all you who doubted my initial story about the celebrity and the stripper go to www.mediatakeout.com and find the story that matches. Since its out who am I to stop the press:) Look for Exotic Dancer in the title story

http://mediatakeout.com/

Oh yeah I'll tell you why they cut Leftwich ........because he sucks!!!

Dates From Hell, NFL Picks

Ok Ok for those who are interested I did give the movie guy a 2nd opportunity and we did go to the movies and saw Borne Ultimatum and for all those I have fallen asleep on you already know what happened. Midway through the movie I was asleep and could not snap out of it. I thought he was pretty nice about the whole thing and found it ironic since I gave him grief over the whole movies in the 1st place. So we agree to a 2nd date where he is going to barbecue ribs etc, we'll watch a movie, and I'll play bartender. Now I will just say this...always trust your 1st instincts. I said he was selfish and had motives from the beginning and they came out this evening.

I must give the guy credit the food was great which is why I proceeded to have 2 plates:). He does have ADD because the 1st movie he put in looked great but had subtitles so he can't sit and watch the screen the whole time (huh??). So then he puts in another one. That movie is pretty good. So now its a little cool I ask for a blanket and a pillow and the next thing you know I am in a deep food induced coma. Sorry but it happens and if you date me it will happen often but its not like I do it on purpose! So I wake up to him hitting me (not hard) on the leg telling me "to wake the hell up you are not supposed to be sleeping"!!! Ok now I don't know about you but this pissed me off completely. I tried to stay awake but damn am I missing something??? Then he does it again and then wants a hug. Can he get some attention 'in his own house' What????? After you are beating me awake you think you are going to 'make out' that wasn't going to happen anyway. I don't know how many times I have to say this. In the regular world you will not get anything easy and the 2nd date???? So now I am wide awake and irritated at this display and I'm ready to go home. It must have hit him because he asks if I was mad at him and then proceeds to call me on the way home and wants to make another date. Uhhh!!!NEXT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Lets backtrack to the Falcons/Ravens game Fri night. Season tickets lower, level 1st row 20 yard line. Had a date and this guy I go out with frequently and actually like. Had to pick him up which already irritated me because I had to pass the GA Dome and go way to the other side of town and then would be late for the game and stuck in traffic. But I did it for the good of the game! When I get to that side of town I may have been snippy because I need directions and I am in rush because the game has now started. Instead of just giving me the directions so we can go he is talking all slow and I am getting frustrated. Don't know if he was high, drunk, half asleep or what. So I proceed to ask if he does not know where he lives. Which caused him to go into ghetto flip mode and call me "Shawty" which I can not stand, followed with the "My n***a" etc etc and then after his tantrum he decides he is in no mood for the game? What the fuck???!!! You better snap out of that shit because you are wasting my $$, my tix, and my time (by now the sky has let out and its pouring rain and its almost the 2nd 1/4). But he did not and it was too late to call on other possibilities. Then to top it off the game was great and went into overtime!!!!!! So I tell you all this to say it is Gay and Lesbian weekend in ATL and I am on the hunt for Ms. Right because Mr. is not available at this time!!!!!!!


NFL Picks to Follow......................


Go Canes!!!!!!!!!!

To answer Chris's question. There are no rules when its comes to women. I don't date girls in the traditional sense. With women I am friends like girlfriends are normally and that leads to sex. It can be in the 1st night or whenever it presents itself. But women are not always chomping at the bit for it. And you're right he may just be a guy that wants some but I believe that those that know of my background expect sex or think its going to come faster than a regular chick and its not that way. But to hit me awake so you can attempt to get some.....I am not feeling warm and fuzy about that at all. I don't see falling asleep as disrespectful. If you're tired its a natural function. I have had dates fall asleep in the movies etc and I assure you I didn't beat them to keep them awake. I understood that perhaps they had a lot on their plate but rather than break the date they made the effort to be there.

And in response to DJKB I don't think I am arrogant I just don't need to be with anyone. I may want to date etc but I will live if I don't that having been said I just don't feel like I have to put it with anything I don't feel like. If that is the definition of arrogant I guess I am. I just have a very take it or leave it attitude. If you have been on the scene awhile I am more than willing to compromise etc. It's funny because every woman I ran these dates by all said the 1st one was selfish as hell and obviously wanted to fuck and the second had a tantrum. Its funny have different we see things as men and women. Those were his exact words but trust me when I tell you it was obvious where he was headed with that. I gave him a hug and kisses when I came in the door why do you suddenly need them now that I am made you beat me awake:) I am a souther woman and I expect southern gentlemen treatment and until I get it I am not settling for this hip-hop bullshit that is out there. I have plenty of male friends if I want to go out or party or even fuck but its the combination of all those that I want.

Apologies

Ok i know all you people that love to read my blog and then send me hate mail will have a field day with this one....

As for Mr. Vick's speech, I genuinely think he felt bad. Bad for dog-fighting or gambling?? No,but I think he has realized the magnitude of his status as a player in the NFL. It was a great speech and I do not think anyone else told him the exact words to say or that it was memorized. After hearing the speech I think he can go on and play for another team if the NFL allows him. In Atlanta people are bombarded with this story on an almost hourly basis. In other cities while its a national story its usually no more than a few minute blurb on CNN or the local news not nearly the ATL saga and drama. That having been said 2-3 years down the road it will all be less of a story and a team on the other side of the country would be more than happy to take him and much more forgiving than those in Atlanta.

My only criticism on the speech was the 'Jesus path'. Now I am not seeing that he has not genuinely turned to God. But to come out with that the 1st time you speak publicly the day you plead guilty is just so cliche to me. I was at the gym and I almost fell off the thread mill when I heard that part. Save that true or not for the future talk-show circuit. Hold out for Opera!!

Not sure if anyone caught the ESPN discussion before his speech on race. Very enlightening. I still say this Vick situation is not about dogs or race. If a no name player on the same team say Roddy White or any other team of the same race was in the same situation it would not be as big a story. This story is so big because he was Atlanta, he was the Falcons and he was the NFL. That and that alone to me is why the story is so huge. Do you honestly thin if Peyton Manning was indicted for the same thing it wouldn't be such a mega-story??? Its not race its stupidity and arrogance.

if in the beginning he had come clean and admitted to it the story would not be on the level it is today. Martha Stewart same thing. If she had not gave the Feds 2 fingers to the sky she would not have gone to prison. Same story. When the feds come just apologize and don't tell them to kiss your ass especially if you know you did it.

By the way who the hell is Leonard Little and who did he kill??????

I am off to the Pre-season game tonight for the Falcons and one of my favs Ocho-cinco. It will be interesting to see if PETA is still protesting outside:)

Kisses,
AA

Porn Regulation

By JANON FISHER

August 19, 2007 -- Ron Jeremy, Jenna Jameson - get ready to stand and be counted.
The Department of Justice wants to come up with an official list of every porn star in America - and slap stiff penalties on producers who don't cooperate.

The new rules, proposed under the Adam Walsh Child Safety and Protection Act, would require blue-movie makers to keep photos, stage names, professional names, maiden names, aliases, nicknames and ages on file for the inspection of the department's Child Exploitation and Obscenity Section.

"The identity of every performer is critical to determining and ensuring that no performer is a minor," according to the new proposal.

The adult film industry plans to challenge the new rule as a violation of the First Amendment, said Paul Cambria, a lawyer for Hustler and other adult film companies.

He sees it as a way to harass legitimate stag-film producers.

"If they can't get you for obscenity, they'll get you for violating record-keeping," he said. Such a violation would carry a five-year penalty.

The proposed rule would require porn producers to give the title of the video or magazine, or the Web address where the actor appears.

The Department of Justice has shown some sensitivity for the performers' privacy, however. All information not essential to proving their age and identity, like phone numbers and addresses, can be withheld.

Distributors of foreign pornography aren't off the hook - they must still produce a copy of the foreign actor's identification card. The department estimates that there are 500,000 Web sites, 200 DVD producers and 5,000 businesses nationwide that would be subject to the new rule.

The department did not respond to requests for comment, but in its proposal suggested that the benefits outweighed any negative impact on the porn industry.

"The benefit of the rule is that children will be better protected from exploitation in the production of visual depictions of sexually explicit conduct by ensuring that only those who are at least 18 years of age perform in such depictions. The costs to the industry include slightly higher record-keeping costs," the agency argued.



Ok now can someone explain to me how this will cut down on child pornography. They don't sell it in stores nor do they keep records of the poor children etc they use in them. Regular consenting adults are who this targets. Thoughts and opinions?

You Tell Me........

Ok this is why I don't date. Here is the scenario..............

Met this guy at a pool party this weekend. He instantly says "you look familiar, have you been on the news...?" So of course I laugh it off and DENY, DENY, DENY because this party was in my subdivision as in where I live etc. Not that I care but it just wasn't the place. Plus since he didn't come right out an admit to where it was I don't know what he is talking about. But I found him to be cute and very amusing. So as the day goes on we talk and found that we have some common interests and philosophies and we decide to exchange #s. Fine. We chit chat on the phone a few times. Still fine. I take it upon myself to suggest that we go out sometime. I suggest tonight. Now we all have already discussed here that I can not go to work all day and have a life. I come home and I am too tired to do anything. Then add the fact that I just bought a 7 week old pitbull puppy along with my other dog and those 2 kids take up more time. So I suggest the movies because I figure I can catch a nap then go out. Here is the killer.........

This gentleman tells me NO! He doesn't like to go to the movies and he has not been in 2 years. First off who doesn't like the movies??? Why not? Something about his knees hurting and he cant move around....? What the F**K??? Do you have ADD or something where you can't sit still for 1.5-2hrs?? But the issue for me is its the 1st date. Whether you liked the movies or not, me being the woman and suggesting the event, and you wanting to get to know me should have kept your mouth shut and went along with it. Anyone else would have and later if the relationship progressed would have let me know they didn't care for the movies. So I feel like he is rude and SELFISH and totally unaccommodating. I guess he must have thought about it and noticed how my mood and phone demeanor changed so then he texts that he will go to the movies..he must really like me to do that. What????? I don't even want to go with him now. NEXT!!

His alternative.........A restaurant that has Happy Hour on Tues night with Jazz? I don't know I think the fact that he told me know on a 1st date irks me. Plus anyone who doesn't like the movies is weird. Then add that I suspect you want to go to what is essentially a bar either to prove or disprove my identity or maybe he thinks I am just that easy that after a few drinks XXX will come out. Well it doesn't work like that in the real world. Why do I even bother with these dudes?

The other ones I have run into this week have all tried to strong arm me into a date. With a total disregard for my schedule. Is this what the real world is because this shit sucks!!!!

By the way mark my words plea deal is coming Mike has no choice.


In response to the IDIOT who asked if I am happy. Give me a break you act like you feel sorry for the Vicks. Sorry for what? They had ever opportunity in the world to make it and they both still fucked it up. So this has nothing to do with dogs over people it has to do with stupidity over common sense. It does not give me joy to see anyone go to jial. I am merely saying that he and his whole family need to look at how they have 2 star athletes sitting on the sofa when they should've been a football dynasty.

Decision Aug. 07'

Well blog readers the time has come to vite on this week's topic!

Possible blog topics:

1. Is this dude he gay/bi-sexual.........

2. Do I want to sleep with him out of spite........

3. NFL picks for the 2007/2008 season.........


Feel free to vote on those or tell me what you'd like to here!! What's on your mind.

Kisses,
Ayana

Atlanta Is Burning!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok well I guess Vick's nickname "Superman" fits because he single-handedly destroyed a franchise! I am sure I will catch hell but guess its my blog and I can say what I want!
How stupid is this dude? Then I here he just retained council today????? Is he serious? My advice to Vick take the plea deal. Cut your losses and take the deal. Many smarter than he and with less on the line as far as the nature of the crime have rolled the dice with the feds and lost. Martha Stewart ring a bell.
Hell it was only a state case but the reason why Genarlow got that time is because he didn't take the plea deal. His cohorts are out been out. Take the deal!!

And for all the members of the "its because he's black" club. Be for real its because he's STUPID!!!!!! PETA protests everywhere from Capital Hill to the Gucci runway at a fashion show in Milan. This is about $$$. The money he is costing the franchise, himself, the fans, the NFL, the sponsors. The interest % alone he would have earned on just his NFL salary not his endorsements would have been far greater than a $30K bet here and there. If you want an adrenaline rush hell do a line or two, pop a pill, (they would have sent him to rehab after they let him slide the 1st 10 times)take up NASCAR, jump out of planes, join the police department, become stunt man whatever but do not embarrass a city and then try to plead I didn't know defense.

I said previously that he would not play in Atlanta again and I think today's press conference was pretty clear on where the Falcons stand. I still say at the 1st opportunity the Falcons will cut him. Forget him ATL. He was never going to take us to a SuperBowl. Although he was fun to watch. Hell we didn't even get to the playoffs last season. He doesn't care about us so ATL get over him. He is the poster child for illiteracy and ignorance at its best. He is from a family of the same (Marcus ring a bell).

Let's look back at all the issues, anyone remember the Ron Mexico incident (hell maybe his new endorsement should be for Zovorax) then there is the weed/airport incident that went away (I'm sorry we all know what weed smells like but in MIA you can buy your way out of that), then there are all the my entourage flies because I am the face of Airtran incidents that those outside of ATL may or may not have heard of, and now this.

I know we "don't want to forget my boys" or "where i came from" but for $100mil give all 'your boys' $1mil and a financial advisor and the following warning : I am giving you this because you are my boy and we go way back. Take this $1mil and make your fortune or blow it all. Either way you can never say I didn't look out for you." People have made their way in the world with far less than a $1million hand out.

Sorry ATL. Sorry Arthur Blank but its ok in time ATL will recover. Let's hope Shockley steps up because I will NEVER wear a Harrington jersey EVER!!!!!!!! I know somewhere Schaubb is laughing hysterically.

Oh and let us not forget the warning given by Jim Mora Sr. Those words "coach-killer" seem haunting now. Perhaps he saw what we all were blinded by:). I don't think Jim Jr. has any regrets at this moment.

On another note I went to the Beyonce concert last Friday night and there is a celebrity that lives up and surpasses all her glory. She is even finer in real life and can sing on the levels of a Patti Labelle, and performs in concert similar to Tina Turner or Prince supremeness. That is an all around head to toe baddest chic in the game and I am sure she will remain that way for a long time to come.

Change Is Coming........NFL/ATL/DC Madam

Well well well. Since it looks like Mikey is on his way to the slammer I must exit ATL stage right as well. Its been a lot of fun but I have always wanted to get back to MIA and now is as good a time as any. So Dade County welcome me back:)!!!! Plus my new job has an office with my name on it in the MIA so by next month this time ATL will be history except for the games I already have tickets too.

Especially now that the Dolphins have seen things my way and RELEASED that dead weight they call Culpepper. Wouldn't it e ironic if he ended up in ATL. And who is it that decided to trade Matt Schaubb? I bet their days are numbered:).


OOOOOOWWWWW-WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE its gonna be a great NFL season!!! I cant wait. But I can not stand with Vick on this one. The things he is alleged of participating are so evil and cruel it just makes you want to puke. I have a dog and I am looking to get another and I cant even fathom some of the atrocities listed in that indictment. His career is over. Doe. A family with so much WASTED talent!!!!!!

Anyone care to pick who the last 4 teams will be in the final face off? I will go out on a limb and say I see the Patriots back in it:). I will have to do more research to come up with my other 3.

Anyone watch the ESPYS. Is T.O. the lone-star of the Cowboys or was that his tribute to the 'Lone Star' state?

I was going to touch on the DC madam thing but I think I will leave my comments out of it but I would love to here yours:).

Look to whoever said I am not standing by Mike no and neither are the Falcons. Have you read the things that are in there? Be for real you dont know a kennel that is visibly seen from initial photos of construction of the house. Come on who are we kidding. You forget I live in ATL and I know things. So its not an issue on idictment. This is a federal case and I don't know about you but the feds don't come a knocking without all their ducks in a row. Not to mention you have as many parties and fight-parties there are a host of people available to testify as to the validity of the charges. As for Culpepper you will see when they 1st picked him up I said he was worthless and now they finally see. I have never been a fan of Culpepper and never will be.

MY SPACE.......Again

Ok this has really got to stop. Now there is a 2nd Ayana-my space imposter. I will say it again I am 31 yearls old and proud 5'4

These are the imposter pages:

http://myspace.com/ayanaangelonline

http://www.myspace.com/ayanangel

I cant not stand myspace and barely log on. The only reason I have a page is to deflect the nonsense. So whoever this is get a life. Why put up a page and then link back to my real contact info? What's the point?

This is my page and as you can see I barely log in nor do I really add friends its useless and pointless in my opinion. http://www.myspace.com/ayanaangelatl

And you Wonder Why I was so Hard on Genarlow...

This story absolutely disgust me. It makes me question pure evil in the world and further grows my Conservative views when it comes to crime and punishment.

Palm Beach Post
Police: Woman Forced Into Sex With Son
Updated 4:50 PM ET July 6, 2007


By BRIAN SKOLOFF

WEST PALM BEACH, Fla. (AP) - Two teenagers were accused of gang raping a woman and forcing her 12-year-old son to join in the attack, then beating him and pouring cleaning solution into his eyes.

Authorities allege Avion Lawson, 14, and Nathan Walker, 16, were among a group of about 10 masked suspects who forced their way into the woman's apartment in a crime-ridden housing project the night of June 18.

The two were being held without bail Friday on suspicion of armed sexual battery by multiple perpetrators, sexual performance by a child, armed home invasion and aggravated battery. Both were arrested this week, but formal charges had not been filed.

"Any rape case is horrible but this takes it to another level, something you can't think of even in your worst dreams," police spokesman Ted White said.

According to the police report, a man knocked on the woman's door at about 9 p.m. and told her he had a flat tire. The mother and son, whom police have not identified, went outside and were ambushed by a group of gun-wielding suspects.

The victims told police they were forced back into their home and beaten and sexually assaulted. According to authorities, the men raped, sodomized and beat the woman, then forced her son to participate in the assault at gunpoint, making him have sex with his mother in front of them.

The boy was then beaten and had numerous household cleaning liquids poured into his eyes, according to the police report.

The suspects also stole a few hundred dollars worth of cash and jewelry, White said.

White said more arrests were pending, but he would not say if authorities had identified additional suspects. The teens in custody were not cooperating, but Lawson confessed to taking part in the attack, White said. Walker has denied involvement, White said.

DNA evidence in a condom found in the victims' home linked Lawson to the crime, police said. Investigators also say they found a palm print belonging to Walker at the scene.

The victims did not suffer life-threatening injuries and have been released from the hospital, White said.

"They're going through the county victim services for counseling," he said.

Lawson lived in Dunbar Village, the hardscrabble project where the attack occurred. Walker was apparently visiting a friend there, White said.

Authorities believe the suspects all knew each other from the neighborhood, but they don't think they knew the victims directly.

Prosecutors have 21 days from the time a suspect is arrested to formally file charges. Lawson was arrested Tuesday. Walker was arrested Thursday.

A call to Lawson's public defender was not immediately returned. It was not known if Walker has an attorney.

Then his mama will be on TV saying how she doesn't believe the charges and her son would never do anything like that. I hope they get the death penalty in this case because there is no rehabilitation from this if you are that far gone as a 14 and 16 year old. None whatsoever. That is pure evil in the flesh.

.........and to the smart ass about what my mother would say. If I did something negative or commited some heinous act I assure you my mother would not mince her words nor would I expect her to. She is a realist and is fully aware of what I am capable of. She does not agree with my chosen path now and has made that very clear but this and that are no where near the same. That is what I meant if my mom was questioned she would say she does not approve or support my life decisions, that I ws not raised that way and that she prays daily for my exit. She is no fan of Ayana I assure. But she is my mom and I respect her and her beliefs etc. Now whoever wrote that about forcing the 12 year old to have an erection. The didnt get that specific who knows what type of sexual act they forced him to do you are missing the point and a little twisted in your thinking?:)

I am very republican texas-style in my thinking when it comes to crime and punishment. I think if the death penalty was enacted more and done quickly instead of 20 years on death row the world would be a better place

Celebrity Gossip, Paternity

FOR ENTERTAINMENT PURPOSES ONLY......:)LOL!

Ok now before I begin let me state for the record I AM NOT REFERRING TO ME IN THIS. I will say it again because I know someone out there will say its me. I AM NOT REFERRING TO ME IN THIS.......

Ok I have a celebrity friend that is known to be how shall I say very friendly with 'shoe models' and porn stars. I actually have a big crush on said celebrity but not enough to put up with all the drama and BS that would come with being in a full blown relationship with this person. So instead when I feel like being bothered and he feels like being bothered we may hook up. Now lately I have been ultra busy time wise because now I am a regular working girl and my energy level is not there to go to work all day and then hang out all night. Nor can I just pick up and go out of town like I used to be able to. So as a result (would've happened anyway) said celebrity has taken up with a local 'shoe model'. Said 'shoe model' now claims she is pregnant. Now when I heard of this through a credible 3rd party I jokingly let him know the rumor (without naming names) and he laughed it off. But 2 days later my informant asked if I had spoken to said celebrity because they had started world war 3 with the 'shoe model'. Now my question is this. As a man in a high profile position with a known celebrity girlfriend, what would your advice be for the 'shoe model' who is definitely pregnant and from how things transpired I would say is more likely than not to be pregnant from said celebrity.

Personally I know this gentleman and he can turn dark quickly especially when challenged or backed into a corner. My advice, go to the clinic and get it taken care of. Because there is no real relationship there and said celebrity has enough $$$ that even if she were to file for paternity he is capable of delaying until that child would be in high school before a ruling would be made. Then being a 'shoe model' how will she be able to support herself????


What do you gentlemen think?

And for the record that is not what I do I don't get pregnant for two reasons. 1. I am not letting anyone raw-dog me, and 2. Birthcontrol works when used!LOL:) And to answer Chante's comment I meant in personal life I am not in the habit of letting people do that and on film I can only think of 1 maybe 2 cream pie videos. Not to mention I havent done a video in over a year so I'll say it again I am not letting anyone raw-dog me. That was and is an honest statement.

And to 'Anonymous' I never said I hooked up without finance. I rarely do that. If there is no $$ involved its a relationship and most dont want to go there because the fall out is far worse than any regular chic I am liable to get revenge with guns blazin. So never assume. Said celebrity prefers to pay because it keeps the lines visible in most cases I assure you!LOL!

In response again no apparently you don't know me too well. In regular reltionships I put up with nothing that early on because if they do BS in the 1st 60-90 days its not going to be any better later on in the relationship. That is when they are on their best behavior and if you see something you don't like then no need to drag it out. I am notorious for cutting people off for minor to major infractions during said probationary periods. I just don't tolerate much when it comes to relationships because I dont feel like I have to just so I can say I'm in a relationship. If you read through all the posts this is not the 1st one to get cut off for what you may think is silly. The point is there are too many people in this world to tolerate nonsense. It wasn't the point if he was fucking someone it was the issue of total lack of respect for my time and consideration.

You would be the 1st man on the planet to not get upset if you're girl was cheating because you were. You know it doesn't go like that. It doesn't even go like that for me. I don't care what I do, you can not do the same to me and think its ok or we should be even. We would just be over. That is just the way it is.


Yes celebrity and his girlfriend have been together for some time now (years) and I know for a fact that he has sex-capades as often as possible for whatever reason but he's a celebrity. There is a price you have to be willing to pay in order to call yourself their girlfriend etc and some women are willing to do that. I just don't haeppen to be one:)LOL!

In response to Genarlow Wilson

Ok to whoever that was that made the last comment. In the state of GA 17 os not a child 15 is. I was not watching or performing in porn at 15 or 17 years old. You can't even legally buy porn at 17 so if he learned it from watching that again where did he view it where were his parents. And obviously he was the mastermind and manipulator since out of all parties involved he was the oldest and the one who should've known better. I am not sticking up for the girl her she is just as out there but I am sure it was not her who decided it would be fun and according to the case reports etc it was not her which is why he was originally charged with rape. In the end she ended up doing as asked but was coerced and manipulated into it. I am not saying she is no culpable but I am saying this dude should still be locked up. As for me and what I do or enjoy I am 30 years old almost 31 far from 17 and old enough to deal with the consequences and outcomes of my choices. I think whoever the adult was that got this band of misfits a hotel room and alcohol should've been prosecuted too. And yes the 15yr. old's mother is culpable as well but I dont see her on TV saying how her daughter was a role model and such a good girl. I am addressing who is claiming their 'baby-boy' is so innocent. I never said any of the acts were nasty etc I said to have that type of sexual appetite at the age of 17 is definitely deviant behavior. This was not a porn production for $$ this was a homegrown sexcapade not the same at all.

My support of Don Imus is not even about him its the fact that how can we be so quick to pull the trigger there but its ok for any black man/rapper/athlete/ etc to call and portray black women as bitches and hos all day long. This is a belief that starts so very very early in the black community (ie Mr. Wilson) its no wonder the terminology and mindset carries over to other races. I don't care what that girl allowed herself to talked into doing; if you are such a star athlete, student, and role model he should've his family should've instilled enough sense of self to know better than that shit at 17! I still say you have had to do so much sexually to get to that point I am willing to be we here of another sexually related charge on said gentleman in years to come. That is NOT normal highschool activity period.

As for me being a porn star, escort, stripper etc what's that got to do with Genarlow Wilson. I'll say it again when I was 17, I was a freshman in college because I had above a 4.0 and was ready to enter my freshman year. I might have had sex twice by that age and none of my friends etc were that much more advanced either.

As for Liquid City what do you want me to say. Mystikal is doing his time as well he should for raping the girl in the video. But that case has more angles as she was extorting $$ from him so no where near the same and no one was 17. So forgive me if don't see the correlation. I see tha ttorney general seems to agree with me:)

Genarlow Wilson, Sexual Deviant

This case really irks me. I for one do not feel at all sorry for this little sexual deviant. I was 17 once and I can assure you I was NOT having group sex and video taping it! If you are doing all that at 17 you are not normal. I did porn and do you know how comfortable you have to be to have group sex and video tape it? It would have never happened at 17. I personally think that is a clear indication that there has been so much more done up to that point that is was just another episode in a script for a future Ted Bundy in the making. If you sexual appetite is that far at that young an age where is there to go? What's left for adulthood? I think this dude deserved every bit of those 10years and I hope the judge's ruling is appealed and lands him back in jail. I promise you will here from him again this time for full blown rape. At 17 he mastered his manipulation and womanizing skills enough to talk this 15year old into making home grown porn. Highschool? And what kills me is then we wonder why Imus and everyone else has this opinion. Obviously this kid has no repect for women and will never learn any if he is that out there at 17. His mommma needs to be locked down too instead of being on the TV talking about "he was always such a good boy". Mrs. Wilson was that before of after he shoved his dick down a childs throat and winked at the camera? Is that the behavior you taught your good son at 17??? adults can do what they want but that is so far gone sexually to be so young. any thoughts on this issue?????????

The Counter Offer, Sopranos Finale

Wow I am really feeling myself. So I basically told my manager that would not work for me and also let her know how I felt bamboozled etc. She came back with a better offer. Same original salary (the one that was acceptable to me), +$2k signing bonus (payable this week), bonus incentives, and I can definitely work from home 2-3 days a wee. So I am going to discuss further when I get there today but to me that was even better than what I started off with. So thanks to all who suggested I just let it rip and tell them how I feel!

Now I don't know about you but as an avid fan of the Sopranos I was so extremely disappointed with the ending. I basically stopped my life for this show weekly and what was that nonsense I saw? The Arab dude walks by (wasn't that Christopher's friend Mohammad) and Meadow is running in the door looking crazed and what?????????????????? I understand you can't kill off Tony for movie possibilities but come on!!!!!!I felt robbed cheated!!!


Thanks for all the support!!

Kisses,
Ayana

Employment Sucks!!!

Ok I tried everyone and I can't say I quit but let's just say the frustration level is at a boiling point. I had what I thought and was fed to believe was this great job 100% commission and basically making your own schedule. Training should be 5 weeks (in addition to the class I took and test I passed to get my license) and if you follow through things will be great etc. Ok I did that. I did more than that. Thee were 5 newbies and now 3months later there are 2.

Out of those 2 who has had any deals? I have had several deals that have fallen apart because the office is so busy when you ask for assistance instead of walking you through it, its either go see if so and so can help you or just do this. So I have lost a few from lack of attention and time length before I get an answer. So for me I was not as pressed financially as the rest. So they all claim I am going to be great etc its just a matter of time, yeah, yeah, yeah.

So I guess some of the other newbies started crying because hell by now normal people if they had any $$ would be broke for sure. so they decided to offer us a salary. Whoop de do!!! Not to me because I know salary means you now have to report in and be accountable. And the salary in all honesty after taxes and social security is nothing to me. I was making that much when I was contracted to VT and only had to work like 2 days a month! So now you seriously want me to drive 35miles each way and be there like 5days a week 8 or 8+ hours a day?

So my motivation has begun to wander and I get to work but somewhere between 10-noon but again that was never the plan! I would not have signed on. I could get a job same pay if that is all I wanted that is a whole lot closer to home.

Now they hit me with "We all think you are going to be amazing" blah blah blah 'but we want to change your position again'... Huh what the f**k? Now they want to drop the salary by 15K and up the commission but make me the manager's assistant basically. They call it coordinator I say assistant for 12months. Now you know if I am the managers assistant I will now really have to be in the office daily without question and to me at the moment commission is like air because I cant see it!LOL:) so no matter what they are giving me on commission it doesn't commute. If I had the free time before to cultivate the business according to their play book and it hasn't grown so far now you want me to take a pay cut and 'learn the business' for 12months. No one ever said it would take that long.

I can admit it. I think I made a mistake trying to venture outside of my field or maybe I should've never believed the hype they sold me during the interview process but I am frustrated for sure. I hate to be a quitter but this is some for real BS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! One thing is for sure though I am still not doing any videos. I have learned through all this I can get a job with my eyes closed and to most society standards I think that is middle class pay but that is not what I am looking for. I need career and higher level pay. So I am still there but I will be 'respectfully' declining the latest scenario so we will see what happens.

The Real World Really Really Really Sucks!!!!

Kisses,
Ayana

Yeah Culpepper is OUTTA HERE!!!!

Ok they haven't said it 'officially' but the moment I and all true Dolphin fans have been waiting for ..........................Get that dead weight off the field!!!! But alas we still have Trent Green hmmm can't say I am jumping up and down about that one.

Ok had to add since had a comment. I have never liked Culpepper long before the Vikings issue at a party he was not even in attendance. I didn't think he was anything when he was at UCF and there was all that controversy about him not getting enough accolades becuase he was black. He was mediocre at best then and now he is a lemon on a quarterback with a career ending injury and even without the injury he only had one, count it, one good season. Stop living is the past this dude is and has been washed up!

Mr. Vick lets see...............if his on the field performance does not overshadow his off the field antics i predict this will be his LAST season as a falcon PERIOD! I personally love Mr. Vick but enough is enough. When is the ship gonna come in on the 100 mil. pay out??? He definitely needs a chaperone. I think I will submit a packet offering my athlete chaperone services to these knuckle heads! I love Vick but again if you can't do more on the field than off the field there is a distinct conflict of interests that affect your job and these need to be addressed this season or go sit at the house with Marcus.

Thanks Gentlemen!!!

Well I have received some very good applications but if there is no email address how can I respond? So if you would email me privately that would work!!! Plus I had a very interesting idea presented and I need to tweak it a bit but basically a contest and the winner will get either a night or weekend to wine me dine me etc. Details to follow for sure.

Now on to the NBA Finals. I am so tired of San Antonio!!! Can you say BORING!!! And am I the only one who wonders how Tony Parker pulled Eva Longoria? Can anyone understand what the hell he says when he speaks?!

Is LaBron ready to be MJ reincarnate? Hell no and I mad that they are even making that comparison at all.

Well right now I am back to taking applications and nothing too heavy. Actually this JOB has me so tired at the end of the day I cant function but I am still there. I will admit its a mental fight every morning to get me out the door but I have a time frame I would give it before I make any moves . So if you can't keep the rules you set for yourself that's pretty bad!LOL

Also if you would like to have any topics addressed let me know!

Kisses,

We all Knew It Wouldn't Last........

I knew I knew it. You know sometimes I wonder if this is all there is relationship wise................games and BS!!!!

Ok the 'Young Buck' got the ax and to be honest I am not even mad but I will not tolerate too much BS from anyone much less a 24yr old!

So to make a long story short he's outta here......

Next!!!!!!!!!!!!

We were doing good, spending time, blah blah blah. I even cooked. Yes that is what I said cooked. It was very normal and fun for a tad. But you know in the end that, I have to go to the club weekly, started to irk me, but when you go to the club and are supposedly on your way to my house then disappear til 3pm the next day that is a whole nother issue. And to be honest a simple text message or phone call I am not going to make it would have done the trick. But no and then when I have something to say about it is was obvious how defensive he became and acted like a real ass or an issue that was minor. No one really cares where you went or who you fucked but respect me enough to say something rather than act like nothing happen. But in the end his mouth and the way he handled that situation got him cut. Hell its only been about what 6 weeks, If you cant keep it together that long we would have bigger problem later for sure. So next !!!!!!!! no accepting applications.

Wanted
A man good looking to gorgeous
$75k and up income
adventurous
open minded to mi bi-sexuality
Age 32-40
Southern gentlemen type qualities and manners
Hmm what else
single (do I need to say that)

Ha Ha. If you fit into those intial requirements now is the time:)

Nappy Headed Ho DVD

Ok check this out. As porn always does they are taking a real scenario (IE Imus) and creating a DVD entitled Napppy Headed Ho. Now its porn so was I offended no. Hell I was not offended when it was said by Imus. But there apparently is now a sense of 'heightened' awareness in the black porn community and there is a petition against Kiss Ass Pictures, the company making the video, by some of the black producers in porn. Are you serious?????????? Give me a break!!!

Its PORN people. It is meant to excite, offend, creat fantasy, and be politically incorrect! With titles like Black Street Hookers, Pimps Up Ho's Down, Parking Lot Pimpin etc why should this title be anymore offensive than any other? Its PORN for goodsakes! Depending on who you are the act in itself is considered degrading. So the title is really irrelevant.

I mean seriously I was floored by the petition. At the end of the day porn as every other industry tries to capitalize on whatever they can and a Nappy Headed Ho DVD will sell and it will get made just like all the rest and the world will still go round. Since when did PORN producers black, white, chinese, purple or blue give a f***k about how the girls in the video are perceived in society or about breaking stereotypes. Porn is based on stereotypes (ie. Ghetto Booty, Black Dicks in White Chicks, Mami Cula Grande) etc etc etc. give me a break people. Before you get on your righteous high horse remember that..............IT'S PORN!!!!!!!

That Fight Was BS

Ok I don't know about anyone else but I need my $59.95 back! Did anyone see a punch that looked like it had any power to it? Its like when is the fight going to really get heated? Then it was over and how did Mayweather pull off that decision? After all that trash talk he barely hit ODLH. Uhhhhh I think it was all to get Oscar the big retirement payday and to get Mayweather another belt so they can boost up the next fight with Mosley.

And what's up with Floydd senior's hair? Is it just me or does he remind you of the Clingon on Star Trek or better yet the Predator? Uhhhhhh.

But it was a virtual cornucopia of who's who but BS just the same!

De La Hoya/Mayweather Continued

Ok I am sure I am turning into a total lame now. I had 2 tix to the fight plaza level given to me for FREE and do you know what?????? I didn't go. I sold the tix. Why would you ask? A number or reasons. One it was very last minute notice, but the funny thing is that would never have stopped anything before. Two and the most pressing reason is because I felt like I would 'fall of the wagon' so to speak. In the sense of running into old crowds, old scenes, the whole party life-style etc and I didn't trust myself 100% to not fall weak since the new JOB is so fresh and new. Hmm not sure what to make of it all. But I am a little sad I didn't go listening to all the hype and the celebrity attendance list!LOL! But I have my 59.95 ready to go. Plus the excess for the tix sale. (I did give the original purchaser some of the $$ back, thank you very much!)

So what am I doing today? Working until fight time. Huh funny isn't it.

On the love scene I met someone that really piques my interest although quite a bit younger than me. To be honest that is making me really leery. We get along great. Share same interests etc. They like my shit talking and can deliver it right back and most of all they get me out of the house. I even went fishing off the lake a few days ago. But I refuse to be played by a 24yrs old!!!! I just can't let that happen so I have toothpicks stuck in both eyes to see the BS if it comes!LOL:)

Okay so I took my earnings and bet on GOLDEN BOY to win with a knock out late in the fight. Yes I know Floyd is fast, (fast as hell), but he just is way way too mouth and I just want someone to shut his ass up! Plus Oscar is sexy! And I think he still has one good last punch left in him. After that he needs to go sit down. Talk about a pay-day though!

Let GOLDEN BOY Win with a KO!!!!!!!!!

Kisses,
Ayana

NFL Draft Day, De la Hoya/Mayweather

Ok Ok yeah football is back if only for a weekend!!!!!

My hopes for draft day? That my beloved Dolphins get their wish and snatch up Mr. Quinn. Atlanta ]???? No comments we;ll see what they do.

I have been dying to get to the fight next weekend in Vegas. But alas $6k for a tix???? Those days of the lavish expenses are long gone. So sensible me will likely have a fight party and do the Pay-per-view thing:)LOL.

On the work front I am still having fun and enjoy what I am doing so for me that is 1/2 the battle right there.

On a love front...............no love but I am definitely out more and more sociable so the dating pool has increased but the great part is I don't have too much time to get 'caught up' in anybody so from a defensive standpoint its great! Ha Ha

I will continue after the draft.

Imus Issue

Ok I was debating on whether to spaek my pice on this but I can't hold my tongue any longer. Personally I was not offended and why????? Because its something that I hear on a day to day basis on TV, radio and just in the street. Black women have been called bitches and ho's by other black men and women alsmost as long as the N-word has been around. And there is no distinction on the use of the word in our community. You can be a lawyer, doctor, CEO, stripper, or porn star and you will still get called a ho. Its is the new adjective. So forgive me but Don Imus was trying to be 'cool' and 'hip' on his show and I can assure you he didn't get that word from his caucasion background. I don't think we can ask for his head on a platter until we ourselves stop calling each other derogatory words as nicknames and slang on a daily basis. Thoughts on the issues?????? I ill say that it is sad that the focus has been completely lost on the game and the team that actually won the champioonship.

Normalcy!!!

Ok I don't know if I am turninging into a total lame or I was just burnt out or what but I like working! I feel far more important now and my confidence has definitely increased. I am not as concerned about being 'spotted'. I have become quite comfortable with just being regular. Who knew! It's so much easier. My biggest complaints.......................Atlanta traffic. The office I work out of is like 3o miles away on some of the busiest highways so its a small window to avoid traffic or I just go in super late and stay late. But luckily only 2 more weeks of that and then my office will be HOME!!! Yippee

Ok I must say for those of you gentlemen that have been on the fence so to speak for what like the last 6-7 years..........you snooze you loose. Like be serious did you think I would do this forever?? And those in ATL, I cut ATL out a long, long time ago so sorry but you better come to the table with some business or catch me the few times I am available elsewhere.

As for the love life again no news is good news. Definitely bump into lots of possibilities but there really aren't enough hours in the day anymore since I work! My schedule is crazy. I am in the is workout bootcamp from 6-7 am every morning then twice a week I still work out with the trainer so add work to that I am in a coma usually by 9:30pm! It keeps me out of trouble that's for sure. I have been going out more on the network tip. Dinners, cocktails, etc stiff I used to cringe at so we'll see. But at the moment my focus is trying to make this change into a permanent one. I will say my mood swings are not nearly as bad as they used to be. I guess it was just time to scale things back and have a defined plan.


So that is all for now. The biggest issue is patience! Never been a virtue of mine and its very hard to develop it at 30 almost 31! Ha Ha. I hope all is well with everyone. Take care!


The Pornstar Formerly Known As....................Ayana

Updates!!!

Hi there soooooooooooooooo sorry I have been out of the loop trying to get it together you know. I am quite happy, elated even with the way things are going. Its nice to have to use yoru brain every once in awhile you know. I am really excited about my exit strategy and what the future holds.

I realize I must be on the right track, either that or there is a free HATER-AIDE give-away!!!:) I even had someone e-mail me that I can never do anything else and that I need to 'stop putting' on airs. Wow. I know most that have an issue with me don't believe I could have ever done anything else but perhaps the fact that I did go to college and grad school before I did any of this is always what set me apart. I can actually hold a conversation outside of "uh, uh, uh Ahhh"!! I am not really upset at the hate mail, it makes me laugh now even harder. I don't get why people that have such negativity are so moved by my comings and goings. Who knows, who cares!!!! I do not think I am better than anyone in fact I know that I am not. But I am smart enough to make MY OWN decision to move on. Nothing against those still doing whatever it is that works for them but it wasn't working for me. I just moved on to the next episode that's it and thank God its on my terms and not a forced situation. Like Kenny Rogers said,...."YOU GOTTA KNOW WHEN TO FOLD THEM, KNOW WHEN TO WALK AWAY"....you know the rest.:)

Unfortunately for you sports fans, I am not a basketball or baseball fan really. I tend to watch the final four, and the NBA playoffs, but can't sit through a whole baseball game. BORING!!!!!! So you won't get any educated picks from me on those sports. I think they make a ridiculous amount of $$ and some of there whining just amazes me.......and makes me sick:)

Love??????? No news is good news. I am working on career right now so actually having to show my face somewhere and do work with regularity, frankly makes me tired. I end up falling out around 8:30 so no energy level for drinks, dinner, etc until I get on my own time. About 2 more weeks to go!!!

But that is all for now just wanted to give you an update and thanks to all the well wishers that helps me get out of bed every day!!!!!

Love,
Ayana

The Plan & The Call

Ok, ok, after several interviews all resulting in job offers (talk about a confidence boost), I decided to go with a company that is mid-large for several reasons. They have about 6 offices and a defined training program. So I think in the long run that will be a benefit. So here goes full speed ahead on the exit plan. So the fact that I have not worked in years meant nothing. I guess atthe end of the day those degrees do hold their worth. Maybe in a different type of job my lack of activity would be a factor but this is basically sales so its really all on me. I am really excited and can't wait to get started. I actually have started here and there on my own but whatever doesn't get done before my start date will just have to wait.

Now let's talk about what I won't miss. These evil, vindictive BITCHES!!!!! It never ceases to amaze me how other girls allow themselves to be so consumed with jealousy over another that they will go to any lengths. Now I got a phone message the other day and I started to let it go. At 1st I thought it was funny. Then I thought it was sad. Some broad left me a voicemail cussing me out called me everything but a child of God, and I must be tired from working since the time she was in highschool, blah, blah, blah. The only thing I can piece it with is this. The call came from a DC # and I just posted an ad in DC. So apparently this upset said provider, that I was going to be in DC working. I mean come on! I have never met this broad nor has she met me, no dealings or crossings of any kind but she was so angered by my presence she had to call and cuss me out! I just dont see how lil ol me can shut it down like that! Come on! Even my ego won't let me buy that. Has to be that gallon jug of HATER-ade she drank (HAHA)

So of course I had to leave her a response and told her to grow up. I am not 35 I am 30 almost 31 but even if I was 50 and people still wanted to see me how does that effect her? I am in 'her city' 2 days! If that is long enough for me to bring DC a city of how many millions of people to its knees where they can't support other girls I am one bad chic! I am but not that bad!LOL!

This kind of downright evil has been a part of this industry for years and I will even go one step further. I have only had this response from.....................you guessed it other black women! For whatever reason the other black providers I have never met in life instantly hate me from jealousy etc and its so ridiculous. That crab in the barrel shit is so true. And it is most apparent among girls in this business.

I can recall when I befriended a local Atlanta provider (black) who then proceeded to plagarize my entire website word for word as her own to 'cut and paste' point where some of the items didnt apply to her. Where is she now........I think you can see her at a local 'shoe model' establishment... I will not say but her rap sheet is detailed.

I am sure I will get all kind of hate responses but I can go over countless situations over the years in this industry where I had to check black chics that had never met me prior but yet were slandering me every which way for no reason. The most outrageous of them all was a female porn star that I admired prior to her BS. Claimed that I was lying (because she was not making any $$ because it was going up her nose) and I didn't have certain material items (again who told her what I made or had when I didnt know the broad), blah blah. When I did meet her I had to clarify if this was the 1st time we ever met. When she agreed it was I had to let it rip.

This I will not miss one bit! So anyone out there that wonders why I dont socialize this is a prime example and I dont even know who this broad on the phone is. So dont email me asking me to help you get started etc. My advice make friends with no one on the net !:)

Not Forgotten

Sorry everyone I am going to write tonight or tomorrow. Just trying to figure out how to structure it:) Stay tuned......................

Ok so I have been on several interviews and all have offered positions and they all have good and nad points. The job is something I can do solo but I would like to save myself from stumbling blindly so I may go with one of these offers that has a training program. On the flip-side the job is 100% commission so these programs are unpaid! So hmmmmm.

Can anyone explain to me why now, now that I want to fade away into the woodwork I am more recognizable than ever before? When I wanted that and craved that I couldnt get it! (Ironic isn't it) Now that I dont want to be bothered it happens to me on an every-other-day basis and most often in the least place I want to be seen! The trick is somehow to incorporate the new field with the celebrity to my advantage.

I am trying to learn everything I can about my new venture and have a mentor I am working with but I wonder if I would fare better if I was in a f/t training program but then again you still end up on your own anyway. Marketing is marketing whether its porn, pussy, or products!:) So I am just feeling my way I just dont want to make a wrong move you know.

On the love front,,.................................there is NOTHING!!!!!!! Nada, zip, zilch!!! Valentine's Day I went to dinner with a close friend but we are not exactly a full blown couple although we have been in the past. But it was just dinner and that's it. Boring huh?!!!! I tried to tell you.

I am actually trying to get another puppy. I am so in love with Cockapoos.I am looking for an all black male one that is really fluffy!!!!!

Sorry there isn't more to report other than my daily battle with whether to be Ayana or someone else!

I Not Only Passed But ......

Yippeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I not only passed I received the 2nd highest score on the test so real world here I come!!!!! I am almost debating on just saying goodbye and submerge myself full blown. It is kind of a 100% commission job and I think my background in marketing will serve me well. Plus I've been marketing myself for the last few years so its got to be easier than that, right?!(LOL!) Anyway I am so sleepy from class and there is some NFL (My Team didn't Make It To The Big Dance) Super Bowl party I may attend so I must catch a nap. I will add to this later!!!!!

Employment Search 2

Actually to answer a few questions.... at 1st I can say I was downright paranoid about being recognized. I have heard horror stories of black mail, back-stabbing co-workers etc, but I am currently in a class and should have my license next week in a market that I think my name will be my advantage and my former industry my target niche. I don't want to jinx myself but I feel really good about this. I even have someone that wants to mentor me and is fully aware of my background etc and they see the $$ signs too! So I may be all set very shortly!!! I think my name, and looks will be quite handy in this bus. And I know how to market myself so I think I am going to be better than ok in a few short months. As for being black as an issue for employment I've never had that problem. I have had job offers already but not anything I am really interested in or passionate about. Not to mention I may not have a lot on my resume but with the 2 degrees I can get an job for $50k easy but I need six figures and my own start and finish time. So for me its not a race issue. I live in Atlanta for God's sake!LOL! On a regular day I don't look physically any different than the rest of the local population. And no not real estate but somewhat related.

Someone asked if I feel that my time in the adult business would have been different had I been white. YES!!!! No question in my mind if i had the same fans, popularity, sales, etc everything being equal and me being white there is no doubt in my mind I would have been Vivid contract status, Playboy TV, magazines the whole nine. I may right a book on that one day but the industry is not equal. But hell reality lif is mnot equal so why should porn be any different. But I'm not bitter or anything its just reality.


But I will keep you all posted.

As for Super Bowl I am in my licensing class Sat-Sun this weekend so I'll be handling my business instead of hanging out this weekend. Gotta make sure I pass the test literally.

As for who wins........WHO CARES!!!!! If you want a pic Indianapolis. Not for Peyton but for Tony!!!!!!!

Also to my anonymous message poster do not keep me in suspense for too long:) Right now the field is wide open trust me!!! I am almost ready to cross over to Lesbianism for good so hurry!!

Employment

Hello Hello!!!
What a week this has been. I have been on job interviews all week and the more I go the more I recall why I got into this business in the 1st place(LOL)! There are so many employment scams its ridiculous!!! They advertise for one thing, call you for an interview, you go in and its something where you need the workbook for $99 and this and that etc., etc. Then let's not even talk about the big gap on my resume that I had to creatively fill:)LOL! Its rough out there. As much as I don't want to I may just cop out like the rest of the adult biz retirees and do real estate school. I really want to do pharmaceutical sales but that is like a secret society to get into.

Then let's not even talk about the paranoia I have about being recognized etc. uhhhhhh what a trap I have created for myself. But I will figure it out. The one thing I have is plenty of time!!!!


Let's see Super Bowl. Well I was all set to be in Florida but someone cancelled on me at the last hour so of course finding a hotel now is ridiculous. So I will be at home or maybe ESPN Zone (if I can get a table) for the game. I don't like either team but I guess I will pull for Dungee. He has had a rough couple of years and I think it will be good for him.

Well that's all for now!!!

January 20, 2007

Hello All!!

Big football weekend! The deciding weekend! Ok my pics..............New Orleans and Indianapolis. Yes that's right. I think that will be big, big for New Orleans and they need it! What a Cinderella story that would be. Yes I know its freezing in Chicago and they will be outdoors but they can and WILL pull it off. As for Indy its finally time for Tony Dungee. This is his year!!!!

On another note........I have had to cut one of the relationship future candidates:)! Yes I know but he had to go. Nothing major happened but it just became evident on a weekend trip to Jamaica that we were world's apart and it would be like having a child dealing with him on a lifetime basis. So alas, he had to go! One down 2 to go:)HAHA


I didn't attend the AVN Awards this year due to my retirement etc. But I here that I didn't miss much. The industry is on self-destruct mode. I mean of course porn will always sell but the market is way over-saturated. I here a lot of companies did not attend. A lot of the stars did not also. Then the moved the date and the host hotel. Not sure what that was all about. If anyone did attend what were your thoughts as compared to previous years. My friends say I didn't miss a thing this year and even the hall they held the show was a disaster. So apparently I have not made a bad decision there.

Well that's all for now......................but bet on NOLA!

MY SPACE

Ok personally I am not a fan of My Spae don't see the point. But there are 3 Ayana profiles on my space and only 1 is me. This is my My Space Page:

http://www.myspace.com/ayanaangelatl

The others are imposters but I do not log in to my page almost ever. Not into the whole 'My Space' craze at all. Sorry folks:)!

I saw a comment that said the one impersonating me they bet is making lots of $$ on myspace. But how do you make $$ on Myspace? All their website info/blog etc points back to my actual site. So if that poster could explain thanks!!

Happy New Year!!!!!

hello!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had a absolute blast in Jamaica. I swear if I could I would have a second home there. I am already going back in March. We went to Montego Bay, Kingston, and Ocho Rios. All night concerts, waterfalls, the whole nine! I didn't want to return at all!!!

But here I am.

New Year's Resolutions. Sorry to say but this is it. I am officially retired from videos so you will only be able to catch new clips and pics here!!!!!

As for seeing clients this is also it and it won't even be a full year so if anyone is on the fence now is the time because it won't be long at all!!!

Its just time. I am finally willing and able to roll the dice on a few things and one thing about adult entertainment its not going anywhere I can recapture my piece of the pie at any time so I am ready to venture out:)!

Now what the hell happened in the NFL while I was gone?? Dallas loses, Giants lose? Atlanta cans Mora, what is the world coming to?

For those who are wondering I am absolutely elated that Nick SATAN left. Somone just turned me on to this site: http://geauxtohellsaban.com/ Hilarious!!!! I am only sad that Miami thinks they lost something. They should have fired him!! He sucked and his wife never like South Florida let him go and be happy. He killed that team for at least the next 2years with that stupid QB-pick and letting Ricki come back and waste everyone's time.

As for the Falcons. I liked Mora. I don't think the Falcons issues came from him. They had bad acquisitions in several departments that all created a perfect storm this season and its not really his fault. Now Patrino or is that his name...? I don't know anything about so its too early to say. If he cleans house completely on the offensive coordinator side and the receivers side I am on board with him 100%.


As for who is left in the playoffs. I like San Diego, New Orleans, and Baltimore. But I don't get how New England manages to pull it off year after year!!! Its mind-boggling!


Let's see on the relationship front by the end of this year I will be living with one of three people guaranteed and married in 2008/2009. I know that's a shocker for the free-world. HaHa!!!!!!!!

Anyone else have some New Year's resolutions they want to share????


I wish everyone a prosperous and safe year!!!


Ayana